Mid-week Confessions: Waking up a year older.

Istanbul, Turkey

The title is not really accurate, technically speaking today I woke up a year and 2 days older, but that wouldn’t look too good in the title, and the 2 days don’t exactly make a difference… Or maybe they do? My feelings are mixed, unexplained and insecure. I turned 21 on Monday, but the memory of how fast it went scares me, and while many laugh at my reaction, reassuring me that 21 is just the beginning of life, I keep feeling mixed and insecure. I am not a narcissist self-obsessed person, I do not fear ageing as much as I fear the pleasure of life and those special moments escaping from me. They said it’s only the beginning when I turned 18, then when I turned 20, then when I turned 21… Yet years have passed so fast and here I am confused and scared of the future, and my fears are seldom explained, for most often they are the fear of a change, rather than what that change brings with it. But then again, I’ve always been the weird sensitive one, so perhaps this whole meditation on the purpose of life and my place in the universe is a little unnecessary, so let’s pretend I just turned 21 and can legally consume alcohol in the US. Yay yay!


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Photos: Daniel Dykes
Location: 10 Karakoy

  • Love your article!! Happy belated birthday! Embrace the change 🙂


  • What BEAUTIFUL photos! I love how they are shot into the light and a little hazy! You look stunning, and happy belated birthday. Stephanie x


  • Very sensual, and pure in the same time!
    Age is just a number, the volume of experience is the one that counts!

  • Gergana

    Beautiful post, beautiful photos.
    I find the little text to the post a little unnecessary. It doesn’t really say anything worthy or insightful and it describes basically the way everyone ever turning 21 felt.

  • Doina Ciobanu

    I didn’t say it’s different, it’s just the way I feel. You can write whatever you want on your blog and I’ll stick to writing whatever I have on my mind here. After all, I’m the one paying for the domain 🙂

  • I didn’t say it’s different, it’s just the way I feel. You can write whatever you want on your blog and I’ll stick to writing whatever I have on my mind here. After all, I’m the one paying for the domain haha 🙂

  • Thank you Stephanie, I’m crazy in love with light leaks in photos, so am happy to hear you like it 🙂 xx

  • Thanks Louise! xx

  • You’re always a sweetheart Simona x

  • L.

    Where is this nightgown from?? <3 happy birthday

  • When I turned 21 in didn’t think about anything related to time, but now, in the random middle of the year I am basically thinking where is my life going and why is it all going so fast? I loved the post, I loved to see your thoughts and the pictures are just lovely!

    P.S. I love the blog

  • Stefanie

    Gorgeous photos and i really love that nightgown. Where is it from?

    Also, ageing is a tricky thing. I am going to turn 30 this year but it is the most confident, secure and self-aware I have ever felt. I feel sad that I have so many years behind me, but I am determined to make every year that comes the best year ever.

    Happy Birthday!



  • Deborah

    These pics,WOW! Your beauty leaves speechless


  • In few months I’m going to turn 22 and just now I have the same feelings as you. What is my place in this world and what is the purpose of me, what legacy I’m supposed to leave. I’m afraid that I’m going to miss something important or not enjoy something to the fullest and then regret about it when I’m much more older. But then again, everything happens as it is supposed to happen and really it’s the experience not time and some digits that count.


  • These pics are gorgeous!

    Printed or Plain

  • Melie Ann

    I love your blog and your style so much, you’re such a inspiration 🙂 Enjoy every minute of life and be happy, i feel with you darling. Happy Birthday and much Love, MelieAnn

  • These pictures are stunning! Happy belated birthday lovely xx

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  • mariel

    you are so beautiful Doina, belated happy birthday to you and cheers to being legal in the US now 🙂 21 is definitely only the beginning of exciting things 🙂


  • Haha, thanks, that will be useful when I’m back in the States 😀

  • Thank you, lovely Vanessa x

  • Hey Melie, your words mean the world to me! Thanks so much xx

  • It’s actually from Zara! But I bought it about 2 months ago 🙂 Thanks x

  • Melie Ann

    you’re very welcome Sweetie, you’re a role model to me so thank you for that ! Big Hug

  • Love that dress.

    I’m having a Kate Spade handbag giveaway on my Instagram soon! Come and visit me 🙂



  • Frances Claudine Segui Vasquez

    I always look up to you. Love from the Philippines!

    Love, Didi of Frances and Flair
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  • Happy Birthday! These pics are stunning!

    x Karen

  • http://www.alinabefu.com/
    Nice to meet you si La multi ani! Did you know that 20-30 is the critical period of adult development? It’s when we are having an identity crisis because we have to decide what to do with our lives and who we want to be. You can have a look at this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vhhgI4tSMwc


  • Katy Ferenczy

    Wow that dress looks absolutely stunning on you (I mean everything does) and happy 21st. Such an inspiring woman who is a similar age to myself.


  • Gergana

    Yes, this is self explanatory. 😀
    Keep up! 🙂

  • Diana Gavrilina

    Beautiful pictures and happy birthday! Change is exciting, every day of every week of every month of every year has something exciting to offer, something new to learn and new people to meet so don’t worry and enjoy being 21! I turned 21 5 years ago (wah Im so old!) and since then my life has changed direction like 3 times and you seem like in a good place in your life, all the best xxx


  • Michelle K. Lee

    beautiful photos!