-1 another year. First of all I want to congratulate you all, we are alive, and have survived the “13” superstition. Goal for that! I hope you don’t doubt my sanity, as that was just a joke… maybe.
Though meant to be the time of the year of “joy and happiness”, New Year’s Eve always makes me sad and scared at the same time. Looking at the intersection of the past and new year, I realize that despite what we do or don’t, time passes by. And we can wish as much as we want for the happy moments to last, or the dark period of our life to end, we are powerless in the face of time. Today I’m scared because I realize I’ve lived almost 20 years, which is 1/4 of the European life expectancy, 7300 days, 175 200 hours… Today I ask myself, what have I done in all that time? How did I impact the world? How many people did I help? but more importantly, how did I live my life? When I start thinking if I’ve been appreciating my life and every single moment of happiness given to me, I realize that you can reduce those 175 200 hours to 1/50, and maybe that will be the amount of time I actually stopped and enjoyed my life.
We always start a new year with lists of resolutions, goals, wishes, but usually they just stay in a written form, unfulfilled, on a piece of paper. But how many times do those resolutions include simple things like “be loved, forgiven, cared about, accepted, enlightened, and respected”? We tend to forget the key things we couldn’t possibly succeed in being happy without. All the work, studies, discoveries, money, goods, might bring excitement, but in long-term they won’t satisfy and comfort you if they can’t be shared with anyone.
Today I won’t write or think about any resolutions. However, today I will be spending the night with my family, and appreciating every single moment of it, because I don’t always do that. Tomorrow I’ll wake up and carry on with my life, working, loving and trying to become a better person, and whatever will come next will be the consequences of my choices and actions, and I choose to be better than I was yesterday.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Photos: Elena Goroshka